My Ebenezer

So this morning I got some news from the doctor that was upsetting. All of the shots, medicine, procedures...basically all of the protocol that we're following right now is not working. I was hoping for progress. Staying in the same place would be upsetting, but I could still hope for things to get better with that. Instead we're moving backward. Didn't know that was possible.

The Lord showed me this morning that ultimately it is all in His hands. All I can do is take care of my part and I have to trust Him with the rest. But regardless of the outcome, I need to remember how the Lord has worked in my life through this entire process. He has grown me in so many ways and revealed Himself to me more deeply than I've ever known Him before. After the Israelites had gone through some rough times, the Lord's prophet, Samuel, set up a stone pillar as a visual reminder of God's faithfulness to His people. It says in I Samuel 7:12, "Then Samuel took a stone and set it up between Mizpah and Shen. He named it Ebenezer, saying, 'Thus far has the LORD helped us.'"

I'm also choosing to place my own visual reminders of God's faithfulness to me and Luke. This post can serve as one of them. We may not get to become parents...at least not the way I was hoping for. And if that is His plan for us, then that is exactly where we need to be. But I can say through it all that the Lord has helped us this far.